YOU.

I almost didn't post today. No particular reason to that, really, but I just don't feel like I have much to say.
What I do want to say, though, is that the comments I got on yesterday's post really, really made my day. Each and every one made me smile - the support from you girls is just overwhelming. I was all choked up! Yes, I know, I'm a cry-baby. Little Miss Sensitive.

The Dietitian appointment today was over and done in about 15 minutes - literally in and out! Which I am thankful for. I was really not looking forward to it, but it didn't end up being all that bad. Maybe that's because it went really quickly... Haha. I convinced her to not weigh me, either. Which, again, I am thankful for. I just knew, that no matter what the number on the scale read, I would be unhappy with it, and this week, I really don't want to be unhappy at all. This week is my last week ever of high school, and I want it to be a good one, as anxiety-free and stress-free as possible. Being weighed would've elivated that stress/anxiety/feelings-of-complete-failure to unbelievable hights. So, I'll just postpone that for next week!

I did something special today! And it really put a positive spin on my day. I got my nails done! Oh, yeah. I went all out, ha! And let me tell you, tapping away on a keyboard is so awkward at the moment, but so much more fun. Tip-tap-tip-tap. I feel so... pretty. I haven't felt worth anything in a long time, and though it's only little and quite trivial, this pamper session really put me in good spirits about myself; a bit of a confidence boost. A push in the right direction, I suppose.

So, while I am in a semi-positive frame of mind, I want to remind you girls of something.
You are all worth it. You are all beautiful, intelligent, incredible girls who deserve the best of everything in life. We all have our down days, our "fat" days, our "I-want-to-give-in-to-ED" days, but we also have good days, where we feel like there's something to live for, something to strive for. Take a hold of those good days. And when you are having a down day, make sure you do something for yourself, despite what ED says. Give yourself a reason to smile, or at least make you feel a little better, if only for a short while. Read your favourite book, treat yourself to a coffee, put on make up and do your hair... Something that makes you feel good. Because you deserve to feel good. Feeling good, in EDs book, is not allowed. But fuck ED! Seriously. Screw ED.
Listen to you. Do something for you.
Do what makes you happy.

You are worth it.

Love, love, love.